Semper Infidelis is the product of over a year of meditation, planning, and psychological preparation. It is more than a portrait of an ex, but a portrait of my recovery from a black chapter of my life. It reflects on the 'shattered glass' phenomena, when a realization about a persons true character causes you to be unable to see them in any other way. That is to say, a beautiful person is made repulsive when they reveal their cowardice, treachery, or other trespasses. Occasionally, religious ministers or priests take part in a ritual where items holy and beloved are deconsecrated, made profane, and thereby stripped of all their magical powers. This is my interpretation of those rites.
It is not, as some have mistaken, a zombie-girl, or corpse girl, or anything of the like. The mottled skin is not rotting, but marbled and burnt, blasted away by her sins in purgatorial fires. The depilatory effect of the flames, the bald stretch of skin wrapping around the right side of her skull, is juxtaposed against the long, detailed head of hair to drive home the repellent disfigurement of the face. The missing missing eye was modeled after a wounded WWI soldier, and is a nod to Lisa, the wailing ghost from the canceled video game Silent Hills. The obliterated nose ties this piece to the equally sardonic portrait 'The Witch Transfigures':
There are other inspirations, and many other thoughts were poured into this, but that is for the viewer to contemplate.
For me, this is the closing of a chapter. I went through the bleakest days of my life and created this from what I found there. I am done. This Phoenix is extinguished.
Ink on bristol, 19"x24"