With this entry, I'm closing the lid on the largest and most intensive art projects I've ever done.'Lessened/Learned'
took over a year to create, as it documents my decline down the spiral of depression. In creating this project, I visited lower lows than I had ever thought possible. The sum of my darkest moments can be found here.
By releasing this project, I am not declaring myself fit, but tired enough of that particular pain that I aim to work on other endeavors.
The first part is photographic.
I completed numerous photo shoots with hopes of capturing the essence of dread that inspired them.
They are listed here. The link leads to the full project and all photos, and the thumbnail leads to the main shot.Red Hands (
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The Power to End This
Every Day I Wake Up and there is Less of Me Left
Weeps Me this Vitriol
My Road to Hell is Paved with False Lovers
The second part is of writing, which can be found here:
The poetry was written alongside many of the photographs, and helped form the complete images they would eventually become.
The Lingerer is is obviously tied to the photographs of the same name.
Just the same with Roanoke.
Finally, the most ambitious part of Lessened/Learned is Evergrief, an EP of my stand up comedy.
Evergrief is made of two showcases of my stand up, both documenting the more absurd angles of my self destruction.
It is available for free download from winslowdumaine.bandcamp.com.
The download comes with both tracks, the front and reverse album covers, and the 'Come Home (Roanoke)' desktop wallpaper.
This has been an exhausting, painful, disfiguring journey, and I did not know what I was getting myself into when I first began. I feel that I have sharpened my teeth on this pain and I am more equipped now to handle future setbacks. I feel that the little germ of aggression in me is starting to develop into something more substantial.
I could not have done this, and I most likely would not be alive, if not for the help of an extraordinary few people. My sincerest thanks go out to Aaron Weise, Abby Rosenquist, Ariel Nicholson, Audra Novak, Donadea Rasmussen, Emma Penrose, Sophia Smith, Gracie Kircher, Hayden Fenster, Joie Venditte, and Monique Eberlain.
Of course, my special thanks go out to my parents, my brother, and my aunt, all of whom helped me immeasurably, in ways large and small.
And of course, my sincerest thanks go out to Kyle, and his companion, without whom none of this would have been necessary.
Thank you all.
I hope you enjoy what I have created. Tell me what you think.